Letter #3 from Didem to Carina

Dear Carina,

I have just seen your photos and read your post with the help of Google Translate for sure. "Wir können nicht mehr gehen." Till that moment, I was hoping for you the best. Now I am so relieved knowing that you are on your way home and I hope you and all of us the best.

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This Fuge project now has an intense story. And I try to remember what we were talking about, three months ago.

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And I try to rely on this unreliable memory that my brain is generating. The old cafes of Vienna, the moments we were trying to open ourselves to each other, the words about fears, expectations, hopes, destinations, borders, the emails, skype connections (we may have one actually?). We would not imagine that these would happen. In this world that we are all connected will not be the same as we knew it.

Having the time to stay at home on my own, to pause, not to walk anymore, to postpone, to place it after. We will place these in our unreliable memories as well. I try to work on my thinking these days as I told you before. I will try to remember these days as much reliable as possible. So I work on it. Sitting at home all alone by myself for the last four days (I have done that before but not with the rest of the world), facing my self that I created somehow, and watching everything that is going on around makes all the time that we have so lucid. I do not know if I am capable of writing how I feel in any language. But I mean that time is all we have right now. To wait. To remember. For me, it is like using a time machine. It only works backwards and we cannot see what is coming next, but we can imagine.

And I hope what comes next will be joyful, open, light for every living being on earth. For us, of course=)

Stay safe,

Wash your handsdkandakfnsfk

Sorry for that, but I will keep this ending=)

Best,

Didem

PS: We can have a skype talk, or maybe keep on writing letters?